Lookin’ @ you feels like I’m lookin’ @ myself in a different way…. 

*She’s start talking

Gak pengen orang tau yang sebenernya, Lo ngerasa semuanya lo bisa handle sendiri padahal secara otak lo dah mo pecah mikirin smuanya…..am I rite???

Masalah keluarga, kerjaan, financial, relationship & your future life ( love life indeed ) semua tumplek plek jadi satu, wish You can do more & ngebahagian semua orang especially keluarga Lo,  tapi bagaimanapun Lo coba, kadang hasilnya gak seperti yang Lo bayangkan & usaha Lo kayanya ga’ pernah cukup karena kemampuan Lo ternyata ada batasnya, nyoba nyari jalan keluar dengan nutupin cerita yang sebenernya di depan orang yang Lo mintain tolong & try to make them believe!!! kalau mentok ke pergi ke orang lain lagi yang kira2 bisa bantu Lo dengan cerita lain lagi, tidak bohong sihhh tapi menyamarkan yang sebenernya, mencoba kuat & tegar di depan semua orang & pretend like no big big problems going on in your life, am I rite???

Pengen ada seseorang yg bisa nolong nyelesaiin at least satu masalah, tanpa berprasangka yang macem2 & ngebuat Lo ngerasa jelek didepan orang itu & orang itu bisa menjaga rahasia tentang cerita Lo sampai mati & ga’ mau ada orang lain tau selain dia or Lo mau ada seseorang bantu Lo tanpa nanya detail masalahnya, yang penting dia ikhlas ngebantuin tanpa harus banyak bertanya, Lo pasti pengen banget ada orang yang seperti itu?????

*Quiet….. 

Damn did She Know me better???? 

Ass wr wb….

Haloooooo…. Anybody Hum??? ucapan salam itulah yang pertama keluar dari mulut gw sesampenya di my lovely kostan,  yaaa… di Jakarta ini tentunya, Senin malem lalu..

Mmmhh… Nobody answer….

Maybe they still on vacation due to lebaran holiday!!! *gerutu dalam hati gw

Damn.. I wish I could have the same thing…. so??? what so?? what happened to me??? I’m coming back to Jakarta earlier than from my schedule, mmhh… nothing!!!!! I just felt really up set Lebaran is a perfect time for forgiveness, but tell me what do you do when you know its not sincere *ini gw ambil dari sms temen gw* 

And that’s happened to me Dude……..

Well… so what do you do???? Just smiling on that?? Try to ignoring?? or run away as fast as far as I do??? as such a being loser!!!! yupsss.. I felt like such a jurk being loser!!! Run away is not a good solution but somehow its workable atleast only that’s which I can do for this time just Run Away….

Mmmhh….. but you know what??? I do really love Jakarta  atleast for 5 days… quiet…. no such of traffic… can you imagine…. Bintaro - Kuningan can be gone through just for half hour only., Fyuuhhhhhhhh…… *kipas-kipas

So.. Guys…. how about your lebaran??? upsss I’m almost forget to say Minal Aidzin Walfaidzin Mohon Maaf Lahir & Bathin Please Forgive all of my lack & Weekneess, for all my unpleasant behavior which unpurposedly was done by me & a deepest apology for all mistakes I’ve made might leave you bad memories..

Again Happy Lebarannnnn for all of you…. and well comeback to the reality…  ^…..^

Lemesss!!!!!

Kerjaannnn numpukkkk bangedddsss…

Totally Moody!!! Damn… I do really hate being moody!!!!

My chellphone is ringing… I saw there my Lovely Momon is calling…

Incomparable gladness is rising.. 

I pick up the phone then we talk….

Me          : “Hi Bu……

Momon  : “Hi Bu…. whats up… its been a while

Me          : “Yupss.. Its been a while…. Hey…. I’m doing Fine you??? how bout you & Your Husband???

Momon  : Really????

( damn!!! did She tried to ignoring me or what?)

Me          :— (take a deep breath ) —  and tried to be as a normal as I could ” I’m Fine….. Great…. why???? 

Momon   : Busy???

Me           : still wondering ” kind of dear….

Momon   : “So.. ??? howz love life???

* I’m laughting
Arrgghhhh… OK…  I knew it…I knew it.. and I keep saying.. I knew it…
ok… I’m out of this conversation.. huahhahahahhaha…

we both laugthing together…

*take a deep Breath

I miss you Bu’ … “dead air”..

hey.. come on… talk to me.. what happened to you??? *

@%$#%$&^%*^*&*(%$^**^$)++_%@#@$#$!@*&^%

*Its mean…. Girls Talk :p

And finally She said :

Growth is a good thing, but you should take a break from pushing yourself right now. Today will not be best spent challenging yourself or starting any difficult (if revelatory) conversations. Settle in to a routine right now, and find comfort in doing the same things in familiar patterns. If things never got boring, shaking them up again would not feel nearly as wonderful. Let the dust settle on your newly renovated life.

DAMN!!!! 

She’s know me better…. & I do realize…

A true friend is somebody who is always present when one needs them..