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We hang up….

I can feel my heartbeat (Grow faster, faster) I lay down in my bed… and I turn on my little mac, I take a deep breath.. 

quiet

What should I do? I’m asking to me, my self & my plurking Irene

Chatting? Plurking? FS? FB? Multiply ? blogwalking? hell yeaaahh…. no!!!!!

So? I don’t know yet.. what are you looking for anyway *again I’m asking my self  I don’t know I’m just try and I wish I could find something relieve me, caused Im here toward into the ground of misery … the question is.. what kind of??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhh…. *speechless 

Take a deep breath..

I close my eyes (emptiness is haunting on me) 

Then, I open my eyes.. wake up.. walking toward and look at into the sky through the window..desolate.. Your sound is stuck in my head.. whispered in my ear.. dancing in my mind.. streaming in my whole body.. surrounded… harder.. faster… harder… and faster.. 

I’m stay in the darkness & keep silent, keep thinking… and I still question why you didn’t telling me the whole truth start from the beginning? but I couldn’t find an answer… Keep Silent… I close my eyes.. Take a deep breath… and another deep breath-

I’m Looking around… feel so empty…  I said maybe today is the day… *sigh*

Like Mr Ondrasik said in his single “King Of The Earth”

I’m as crazy as clown tonight
a clown without a crown tonight
a simple sack of wishes and bones.
I’m as useless as a memory
the day before it came to me
to save your time stitches and stones

But once in my life I was the king of the earth
once in my life, 
I was. 

I’ve flown horses on the skies above
that aint enough for you my love
to fill these empty castles with ghosts
I’ve married devils to their history
sood where you would bury me
through a time of statues and rows

But once in my life I was the king of the Earth
Once in my life
I was. 

now that the stars have frozen in their places
all that I’ve hold seems gone
now that the stars have fallen from their faces
I will see you on

I’ll never be your picture present
but I hope you go the rose I sent
to save your town of stitches and bones
I’m nothing more than a simple man
born to be american
out to draw these bridges and motes

but once in my life I was the kind of the Earth
Once in my life….

Bingung…

kangen apa marah sehhh tanya gw dengan nada tinggi setinggi menara BNI 46 mmhhh or Petronas building di negeri sebelah… si Eve; hanya terdiam membisu!! (remind me to Maliq & D’Essentials Song.. dan si gw pun bernyanyi.. mataku terus tertuju padamu, saat kulihat dirimu tersenyum… *halaahhh* fokusss duunkkkk jerit batin gw* ) oya.. back to Eve mukanya merah semerah bara (eeh.. ini bukan bara yang jago masak itu ya pemirsa) ini semerah udang rebus heuhuehue makanya dia pergi ke klinik langganannya tadi pagi arrgghhh… seriusss dunk… ok ok… si Eve boro-boro bisa jawab pikir gw dalam hati, si Eve kan Budeg!!! ak.a ga bisa denger *lol 

Tapi sungguh disayangkan dengan perangai yang kata kebanyakan orang bilang sehhh  ”cukup lumayan” Eve ada pribadi yang menyenakan… bawell… easy going & lovable.. tapi dibalik semua itu dia punya sifat  MOODY yang aduhai manisnya, saking manisnya.. martabak keju San Francisco aja kalah cuy… beuh… kalo moodynya sudah dateng… naudzubillahhimindzalik…. *tepok jidat* kita bisa kebakaran jenggot dibuatnya, senyum manisnya akan hilang seketika semudah kita membalikan telapak tangan *sigh* hell yeaahh… that’s annoying.

Seperti halnya malem ini… Eve sedang dirundum rasa yang teramat besar hingga dia sendiripun tidak kuasa membendungnya.. well… dia hanya bisa pasang muka jutex.. manyun… dengan setengah misuh-misuh… herannnn!!! ko ada seehhh orang kangen yang ujungnya malah marah-marah…

Tapi itulah Eve yang gw kenal.. dia bisa tertawa dengan riangnya, matanya terlihat berbinar-binar ketika dia berbicara, bercerita, bahkan terkadang suka terkesan sok akrab sok dekat hehehe mmmh dan Eve… ogh.. my lovely dear Eve.. where is your sweet-smile Eve… Yeaahh… seperti yang gw singgung diatas, Eve orangnya moody beraatt.. sangat moody.. Eve akan kehilangan keriangannya, canda tawanya, binar matanya, kecongkakannya… mmhhhh *tarik nafas dalam-dalam* dia hanya akan terdiam membisu, jutex, & you know what she’s very a cynical person, I do really hate when she being a moody & cynical person!!! *take a deep breath* Grow Up Eve… 

Please,

mmmh….

July & August ’08 is my month full of party, why? what & why was that? pyuuuuhhh.. *not talking* I got a… give me a minute… mmmh… for more or less is 5 invitation of my friends wedding party… starting from end of July till 3rd week of August.. I can imagine….  saloon.. make up… dress up.. saloon.. make up… dress up… *again..not talking* and all of girls stuff… hell yeeahh… you know… We.. (may I called that we??) but eitsss…. the most important from all that things is exist between all my pals, convergence, and the bottom line is my appreciation to all the brides and again Exist :p

Well… here with my “exist” am talking about

1st..

at Botol’s wedding, July 30, 08 – Serbaguna Senayan Building

Here we go, Me with my partner in crime from my last company ( we used to be called by outbond team) left beside me is Tante’ Sari or Mbak Sari or.. Big mama since she’s married with 2 lovely son, and second is my wanna be twin sister Odong Surodong aka. neng Hilda She’s my close friends ever. … uuhuu.. damn I miss you girls

Above picture is me beetwen all the A2′s ( Tante-Melon-Me-Fred-Tamadochi-Odong) without Ibu Jendral & Tina

2nd…

At Sucir’s wedding –  August 3rd, 08 – Museum Purna Bhakti TMII ===> no picture available.. ( nanti ya )

3rd…

At Finnia’s Wedding – August 10, 08 – Daarul Adzkaar

Here with The TL’s BIG FAMILY Start from the left : Angga-Richoz-Praz & hes cuttie-Pritha-Blubby-Vanya-Me-Deta-Cippiihh-Jerry-Deku-FrenzofIta-Nunique & Her Beloved husband Ade & her cuttie daughters. Pyuuhhh… ini belom semuanya lho..

4th..

At Sapuan’s Wedding August 16, 08 – Balai Sudirman  ===> no picture available.. ( nanti ya )

5th…

At Garrie’s wedding Ausgut 16, 08 – Bandung

Here with my IFS full team without the Groom start from the left : Puteh-Arf-Sunny-Samy-Kampleng-Eru-Pur-Sakti-Jess2-Rowal-Jei-Popo-Hendry-Me-Kang Ucup-Garang-Mimin-Ucha

DONE!!!!

*take a deep breath*

ya ya ya…  I know.. I Know..  How bout Me?

*I’m just smiling on it*

sakit sekali rasanya

Ini dimana ya?

mmhhh… pertama2 gw liat above pic is termehek mehek (secara gw juga ga tau termehek mehek itu apa seehh) honestly speaking thats aweome…. and still I couldnt find where the hell is *nepok jidat sendiri* now please see of my below pic :

Or below picture??

hell yeaahh…

*terkonclang mode on* itu kampung gw, di purwakarta, lebih tepatnya di jatiluhur… what such a beautiful place isnt? how come I didnt recognize my own town, bener neehh.. kota metropolitan telah banyak merubah gw hehehehe again “pembenaran mode on”

Uhuhuu….

Jadi kangen kampung,

and I miss my lovely mom