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We hang up….

I can feel my heartbeat (Grow faster, faster) I lay down in my bed… and I turn on my little mac, I take a deep breath.. 

quiet

What should I do? I’m asking to me, my self & my plurking Irene

Chatting? Plurking? FS? FB? Multiply ? blogwalking? hell yeaaahh…. no!!!!!

So? I don’t know yet.. what are you looking for anyway *again I’m asking my self  I don’t know I’m just try and I wish I could find something relieve me, caused Im here toward into the ground of misery … the question is.. what kind of??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhh…. *speechless 

Take a deep breath..

I close my eyes (emptiness is haunting on me) 

Then, I open my eyes.. wake up.. walking toward and look at into the sky through the window..desolate.. Your sound is stuck in my head.. whispered in my ear.. dancing in my mind.. streaming in my whole body.. surrounded… harder.. faster… harder… and faster.. 

I’m stay in the darkness & keep silent, keep thinking… and I still question why you didn’t telling me the whole truth start from the beginning? but I couldn’t find an answer… Keep Silent… I close my eyes.. Take a deep breath… and another deep breath-

I’m Looking around… feel so empty…  I said maybe today is the day… *sigh*

Like Mr Ondrasik said in his single “King Of The Earth”

I’m as crazy as clown tonight
a clown without a crown tonight
a simple sack of wishes and bones.
I’m as useless as a memory
the day before it came to me
to save your time stitches and stones

But once in my life I was the king of the earth
once in my life, 
I was. 

I’ve flown horses on the skies above
that aint enough for you my love
to fill these empty castles with ghosts
I’ve married devils to their history
sood where you would bury me
through a time of statues and rows

But once in my life I was the king of the Earth
Once in my life
I was. 

now that the stars have frozen in their places
all that I’ve hold seems gone
now that the stars have fallen from their faces
I will see you on

I’ll never be your picture present
but I hope you go the rose I sent
to save your town of stitches and bones
I’m nothing more than a simple man
born to be american
out to draw these bridges and motes

but once in my life I was the kind of the Earth
Once in my life….